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My baby has been with me for 5 months already! He was born on 19 September. Of course if we want to be exact, he is 21 weeks 6 days.
I cannot believe how fast he’s come along. And I cannot believe I’ve spent every single day with him since his birth. The longest time I’ve been away from him was for 5 hours when I went out to run errands. I wonder if I can cope with being apart with him for a day.
Elisha is blabbering a lot more, and is louder than ever. Today, we thought we heard him say the word ‘HUG’. He was probably playing around with all his newfound consonant and vowel sounds, and accidenally blended ‘h’ with ‘ug’ to make ‘HUG’. Nonetheless, being parents, we were thrilled. I squealed with glee and I whisked him off the bed to give him a great big hug.
A part of me wishes that he will grow up fast. But I know that once he does, there is no going back. So I really do relish this time I have with him. Sometimes, I just do nothing but sit and watch him. Quite unproductive, I know, but I can’t help it. It gives me great joy just to sit or lie near him just to admire or smell or cuddle him.
Yes, I LOVE ELISHA!
A joyful heart is good medicine, But a broken spirit dries up the bones.
Proverbs 17:22 (NASB)
I haven’t been the happiest or nicest person to be around these past weeks. I’ll be the first to admit this, and my husband will not protest. I’ve been grumpy and disgruntled about where my current place in life. I’m not speaking philosophically but rather plainly. I’ve been rather upset about being here in Macau. Yes, I am glad that our little family is reunited here but I am really missing my home, and life in Singapore. Other than my family and friends, I really do miss Singapore – her sights, sounds, smells, and oddly enough, the people there.
What I’m experiencing right now is probably termed ‘cultural shock’. There seems to be a million and one things I find odd and horrid. Smoke clouds in most eateries. Stroller-unfriendly pavements polka-dotted with dog poo. Crazy drivers who are perpetually in a rush, have an aversion to slowing down at crossings and subscribing to an unsaid motto to mow down as many pedestrians as possible. I’ve lost count of the number of cars that have tried to accelerate past me as I’m pushing my baby in the stroller. Aargh. There are more peculiarities, but I think I should stop.
I finally went to church last Sunday and lo behold! God spoke to me about my need to change my attitude through one single verse – “But seek the welfare of the city where I have sent you into exile, and pray to the Lord on its behalf, for in its welfare you will find your welfare” (Jeremiah 29:7). The pastor said, “Of course none of us here are actually in exile.” But I do feel like I’m in exile here!
The way life goes, I know I have a choice about my own attitude. Do I want to be whiny and miserable? Or do I want to enjoy my life? Of course I want to enjoy my life, especially with my little baby. (I don’t want to raise a sour puss either!) So to do this, I’m telling myself to start looking for the good every time I get irked by the idiosyncracies of this place. It’s darn hard work but I think it will help keep my sanity.
To get started on my joy journey, here are 5 good things about my life in Macau:
1. I’ve found a group of wonderful Christian ladies at the Tuesday Bible Study Group.
2. I’ve made three new friends today – Anya (German), Hsiao Hui (Malaysian) and Mei Yee (Hong Konger) – and they’re great fun.
3. I get to be a stay-home mom. This was something I planned to do from a long time ago.
4. I get to enjoy watching Elisha grow and change every single day.
5. I am becoming better at managing household chores and my time.
Well, it’s probably been a month since I last posted. It’s been a crazy time of many adjustments for me. I spent three weeks back in Singapore and had limited net access. Plus, I had limited energy reserves as I was caring for my little Energizer bunny of a bub.
Now, I’ve been back in Macau for almost 3 weeks. The first 9 days back was spent with the company of my mother, so they flew by more quickly and enjoyably. Yet, I could hardly find energy to spare. This past week I’ve been trying to figure out the best way of juggling various demands of mothering, wife-ing, housekeeping and work.
As blogging is listed in my Top 5 To-Dos for 2009, I thought I better whip myself into action. Thankfully, the baby is asleep right now. It’s been a fight for the past few days to put him down at night. Hopefully, he stays asleep for several more hours before he wakes to nurse. And I do hope that this post will mark the end of my recent hiatus, and the beginning of MORE me-time.
Laundry’s done. I’ve got to run to hang them up.
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